THE THREE TREES

ONE that takes steps toward me, but oftentimes doubts to give shade. So he just decided to run away because he was scared.

ONE that keeps on giving his shadow, sings and comforts, like he was the right one to take refuge to. But at some times, he appears as a mere tree without shadow. Perhaps he's not the real.

And lastly, ONE that is so healthy, has the greenest leaves among others; trunk with the brownest and strongest; branches with the perfect curves that swing beautifully. Among the three, I would want to take refuge on this tree.. but he always pushes me away.

AM I?

Hey there!

Been 1 year and 2 since the last time I wrote something. Back to now, I would like to say something.

I'm in a middle of hoping, praying that my life would become like how other christian families live. Got a better life. Got companions. Got their families to their rescue.

Things are really different for me. The world I'm moving isn't like theirs. Or perhaps, the story God has for me is just different from the others.

To live alone is scary. To survive alone is scary. The people I love started to drift away. Others have just drifted away. And I'm on a box, asking myself, "maybe I'm not good at keeping people." "Maybe, I am meant to be alone."

But I want to believe, it's not what God has prepared for me. I have in my heart the glimpse of hope that it's not what God has in store for me. He loves me. So He doesn't want this also.

But why? Why am I alone? I don't have my family with me. My best friend has abandoned me. My close friend has left me. Am I not good at keeping people? Am I? Am I that worse than a lion in the desert? Alone in the wilderness? People, even all the other animals are afraid of him. Am I worse than that? It kills me inside. I'm hanging on the thread.

But I want to believe, there is something more than this. There is a better place for me in this world. And if not in this world, perhaps in heaven.

Perhaps.

- IAM

TUG-OF-WAR

Just standing at the center point of the circle

I have been waiting for great miracle

But waiting seems a huge hoax

A voice telling me inside I should take some walks

Too afraid and I don’t know where to go

But that’s something I need to forego

As I step my foot outside the circle

I saw my dreams and found it’s more than miracle

Reaching them is not unreachable

Having my dream is neither impossible

SAFE

You keep tryin to get inside my head

While I keep trying to lose the words you said

Can't you see I'm hangin by a thread

To my life what I know, yeah I'm losing control

And oh no, my walls are gonna break

So close, its more than I can take

I'm so tired of turning and running away